Feeling Lost

Not only that I am feeling lost when I'm awake, I even dreamt of it last night. It felt so real. I felt the fear, the solitary, the desperate call for help.

I cannot really describe the dream but I'll try my best. So, I was walking in a crowded place and suddenly all the people I know beside me disappeared. I looked around and tried my best to locate them but it didn't work.  Taking out my phone and trying to call one of them but to no avail too. Somehow I managed to find them but they all seemed to be ignoring me.

According to www.dreammoods.com, dreaming of being lost could mean that you are trying to adjust to a new situation. If that's so, why am I feeling that in real life too? It did not feel good. I felt that my mental resistance was pushed to the limits. I sat by myself at the dining area of my camp and started thinking. It was the worst feeling ever. Everything around me has changed. The place remains the same but the people are not the same anymore. I looked at the briefing room we once chilled out together. It was just a few days ago that we were all inside the room together and talking with each other, sharing jokes and such. I wonder what has happened. Sometimes it could be myself worrying too much, sometimes it is true but I have yet to notice it. Only time will tell.

A Sentimental Post

Sentimental? Not something I'd relate to myself if it was like, 5 years ago. Ever since my enlistment into National Service, it seem to me that my friends are of the utmost importance to me, next to my other half and family.

These days had seen what my friends really could do for me and what I could do for them, although what I can do is just minimal compared to the emotional and spiritual support from them. I have gone through my ups and downs. To find a friend that can aid you through tough times and laugh with you through happy times is seriously not easy. However, I am glad I managed to find friends like that.

Sometimes you can say I am too emotional or what but I can't seem to find a better way to express my gratitude to my friends around me. You know who you are, I do not need to say names, ya? ;)

Somehow these few weeks had seen my mood going like a pendulum, high and low at times. When I'm feeling low I always try to speak to my "listening ear + counsellor" (yes you know who you are!) to get advice and such. Seriously, speaking out my feelings make me feel much better.

I have nothing much to say now, but...

THANK YOU :)